yes, i know it's such a disappointment that you're unable to read most of my posts from now on.
you have to be my friend in order to do so. (A)
sorry for the inconvenience, and i know i can be such a b*tch sometimes.

credits to Huiwen the-girl-who-calls-me-lesbian-but-actually-loves-me-a-lot-inside for the wonderful beautiful portrait of me. :)

I AM IN SCHOOL NOW.
IT'S 8.03 PM AND I HATE NIGHT CLASSES.

School sucks even more with lousy lecturers.
I really feel like tearing my hair out of my scalp except that that would hurt and I don't want to lose even more hair.
I really really feel horrible.
This isn't supposed to happen.
I expected more fun in MMFund.
Stupid stupid stupid.

The only reason why I'm here is that there's nobody to talk to.
Even if someone's willing to listen, it's just really frustrating when the listener doesn't understand/experience what I'm talking about.
This is crap.
T^T

I was just leeching off the photos from Jieying and Shilin to upload on Facebook.
Somehow, I decided to give up halfway.
I refused to believe that all that so-called "unity" is not eternal.
We were long forgotten and thrown into the back of everyone's minds.
I hate to admit the fact that Huiwen is right.
Even if you feel that you can die for somebody, it does not necessarily mean that that somebody can do the same for you.
It's just different.
You know, I was kind of looking forward to this class gathering.
I was actually anticipating the laughter and reminiscing about the past.
But it seems that most of our efforts were unappreciated.
I felt like we were being paid to service the rest of class (well, only the pathetic few who bothers to turn up) when we're not.
It's so pathetic, all I could do was to comfort myself that I still have my best friends.
But really, is that enough?



On a lighter note, I would like to share a print screen of my desktop. :)



And I would like to say that I miss being blonde.
Especially after looking at the photos from the Da Lian trip with Hoho's family 2 years back.
Somehow, while looking through those images, I had a lot of mixed emotions that I can't decipher.
It's kind of like, I want to smile, but at the same time I feel a little down.
I'm not sure if it's a good feeling.
That being said, here are some priceless blonde moments in China.
When in China, speak Chinese. ;)





I really am grateful to Hoho and her family for giving me this unforgettable and otherwise impossible experience.
It was really an awesome trip and it wouldn't have been possible without such great hosts.
And also to Hoho for being such a great friend even though sometimes we do not get along very well in terms of mentality.
Anyway I'm laughing right now at your blue skinnies, they look kind of ridiculous now.

Thank you, each and every one of you who has been such a great friend to me all these years, and the following years ahead.
Through thick and thin even though sometimes we just feel like giving up.
You know who you are, don't be shy. ;)
Love you guys to the maxxxxxxx MUACKXZXZXZXZXZ (L)(L)(L)

Today while I was taking the train back home, this guy (shall mention no races if not I'll be termed a racist and I don't think this has anything to do with race) stunk to high heavens.
GOD! It was really really horrible because I had to sit throughout the whole ride while holding my breath thinking that he'll be alighting soon.
Never did I expect that he was alighting at the same stop as me, so suay right.
What's worse was that, to my utmost horror, - I can't be sure because I didn't dare to look right at him, so I just took a glance - he seemed to be picking his nose with his right hand (Hi, I'm sitting on the left) so by logic if he flicks it would be at me.
And that is why I prefer buses to trains.
The risk of unfortunate events are less likely to happen. D:

Made a trip down to school with Huiwen.
I believe almost every one who hears about me going to school were surprised that I even bothered traveling there during the holidays.
But it was good.
School library is fab. (Y)
I'm so excited for what is to come.

Enough already, FASHIONISTA.
Yes we know you LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE South Africa.
Oh god.
Now everyone thinks themselves as fashion statements.
Well done, all of you. ;)

over certain joyous happenings on you.
But you can't stop me from feeling jealous and wish it's not the case as well.

Basically done with my cover letter.
I feel that it's lacking a little something but I can't be bothered now.
Now I'm thinking how I should edit my own template to make it suitable for a resume.
Hi.
Bye.
I really need more sleep. D:

"I know it sounds boring. But it's the boring things I remember most."

How very true.
Sometimes, the messages put across are so close to your heart that it hurts a little.
Gosh, I can't express how exhilarated I am now that AMP's over.
I'm so going to enjoy my weekends before the vicious cycle begins again in 2 days time. D:
I really am very very tired.

But I'm actually quite a big fan of egg blue.



Okay I know this is not egg blue.
What I'm trying to say is that I'm not a very biased person that loves only pink.
So if I ever get my hair done pink, don't term me as a pink freak k.
Because it's weirder to have blue hair in my opinion.

Source: The cherry blossom girl

And I'm very happy now that I've found my ezlink card.
Wouldn't want to remake another ezlink card or any other card for that matter.
What I need now to make my life whole again is to stop the gastric pains.
Has been going on and off since Friday night and it's not your usual gastric pain.
It feels like something is chewing on your gastric and everything that goes down your throat hurts whenever it reaches there.
I'm scared. :(

Baby you can drive my car!
Yes I'm gonna be a starrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~

YES! YES! YES! YES!
I'm like so extremely pleased and estatic now that I'm done with my report.
SEVENTEEN FREAKING PAGES!
I was panicking that I couldn't finish it within the deadline.
It feels like a miracle when Colin decided to postpone the deadline to Monday.
How awesome.
If not I would have already been dead and depressed already.

Oh and I saw my EC's photos on fb, hence it added to my happy-meter.
Oh no, I feel like playing Sims 3 now but it's already 1.45A.M. and there's class tmr at 12. D:

Hui Min is craving for Strawberry Ice with tonnes of condensed milk. :)

I have a sudden crave for purikuras.

To dream that you are giving birth to a non-human creature, signifies your overwhelming (an unfounded) fear in the health of your baby. You are overly concerned that your baby may have birth defects. This type of dream is common in expectant mothers in their second trimester. If you are not expecting, then it refers to your fear in the outcome of some decision or project. You are trying to overcome difficulties in your life and achieve inner development.

:O :O :O

I dreamt that I gave birth to a dog.
And the child's father was really nice to me so we switched our handphones (apparently he removed my stickers and phone strap).
Oh and the child's father was my primary school classmate whom I don't even remember all these while.
So yeah, after that I stayed home while I was pregnant and I realised he was cheating on me.
Bloody hell. D:
I'm going to check what does cheating means.

Edit: Found it!

To dream that your mate, spouse, or significant other is cheating on you, indicates your fears of being abandoned. You may feel a lack of attention in the relationship. Alternatively, you may feel that you are not measuring up to the expectations of others. This notion may stem from issues of trust or self-esteem. The dream could also indicate that you are unconsciously picking up hints and cues that your significant other is not being completely truth or is not fully committed in the relationship.

Haiyo, don't know how true is this.
But I think this applies if the mate/spouse is the real mate/spouse leh.
But mine is just some random primary school classmate.
How?

Heh. ;)

I've only just changed my contact lenses like 3 days back and now it's dry like dried flowers.
Everything's killing me.

That aside, I'm now at Design entrance waiting for Huiwen to finish her submission thing.
o_o
I just realised right, I thought we're going AMK but it takes forever to go there from here and I wouldn't think Huiwen's going to like it.
I - want - KOI - milk - tea. D:

Hope she's done soon though because Monny's battery is running flat.

A little update to you people whom I'm too busy to meet up with:
I'm not doing very well in my module atm.
I am actually very stressed despite the fact that the holidays has just started for me.
But having to know that this is not the end is killing me.
I hope sales would be exceptionally good when school reopens. :(

I'm thinking of happy things to post up now.


Okay.
To all my good friends out there, let's meet up during the holidays ok!
If not it's really impossible already. T^T

For some reason, I feel that I've come to a dead end.
I find it so difficult to move on any more.
I'm so sorry and thank all of you guys who has been there for me and actually really cared.
Just a moment ago, with much convincing and talking, I feel that I have to do what I need to.
But now the problem is how, and if I'm able to.

I hate the new bitchy and whiny me.

Have been feeling quite wrong lately.
Okay not wrong, it's just not right.
Totally lost my appetite for dinner last night and kept stopping myself from throwing up when I was out with my mum to the market.
My back and legs are aching like nobody's business.
I've been getting bruises out of no reason and it's taking a long time to recover.
There's even one huge patch on my right leg which has probably been around for a week.
It was blue/black/purple and now it's kind of red.
Whatever it is, it's ugly and troubling me.
I don't even need magic mushroom to feel that plants are speaking to me.

Okay back to blueprint.